*iz confuzzled*

A new semester is on the horizon and I'm supposed to be starting my grad classes. For the past few years I've been telling everyone I'm in a 5 year Masters program but it really hit me recently that I'm going to be going to graduate school and coming out with a Masters and then I have to get a job! I hope I'm not the only one who feels like they have no idea what they want to do with their life and feel like they are on the fast track to an unknown future. I wish I was the person in 3rd grade who knew exactly what they wanted to be on Career Day. I wish I had planned out what college I was going to attend and made backup plans for my future. But I'm not that person.
I have to know what I'm getting into before I commit to it. I hate uncertainty and going into this career headfirst with no introduction to "real life" is just so mind-boggling for me. Sure I have an interest in the field and it's a possible carreer but I don't know if I want to do it for my whole life. Maybe it's because I'm a little younger than all of my friends or maybe I'm not as mature...I don't know but I still have dreams of travelling and living in the big city and wanting to work on a movie set. It just seems that I didn't let those wants rule over my head at application time and it feels like I got thrust into this course unprepared.
Why do we have to decide at 20 years old what we want to do until we're 60? Why is it so bad to "think of life as a tv show" (like my dad always faults me on)? Real life is crazy and sucky enough so why not let your minds escape into these worlds where heroes and the like do exist?

Blah..

I still have so much to do this week. I got a few minutes of video today but I don't really know if anythings usable yet. It really sucks that my interviews won't get done till Sunday. I don't know anyone else who can be in it though. Everyone is just free on the weekends. I also have to go costume shopping with my sister for Halloween. I'm all set- it's just her. I could do some stuff tomorrow before and after school. Maybe I'll do some thrift store shopping before school and then do filming and look at phones after school with her. I don't know. And then I got an exam on Thursday and part of my research paper due tomorrow. AHHH!!
This semester is seriously the hardest ever. Classes for next semester went up today and I picked out a few that I would like to take. I don't really know for sure what I have to take yet. It'd be nice to have a relatively easy semester after this one though. And this is just October. I still gotta take my graduate exam in November.
But aside from all stuff school/work related, itS nice to see all my favorite summer blockbusters finally making their way onto DVD. I recently picked up Iron Man which was fantastic and today I got The Hulk. <3 Edward Norton. Pineapple Express (which was hilarious) should be out on DVD around Christmas, I'm guessing. Hopefully sooner.

So I'm finally starting to shoot my movie this week. I'm so nervous about how it's going to look, especially knowing that we have to show it to everyone in class on Monday. I know that should be the least of my worries but I still can't help think about what other people think about me and the things I do. If I could have a superpower or become a "hero", telepathy would be the death of me. I'd probably drive my self more insane.
I'm getting excited now that Halloween is getting closer and closer. It's usually not as big a holiday for me but this year I think it represents more than just getting candy and dressing up. It's a break from all the stress from school and just a time to have fun. Hopefully that fun will last me to Thanksgiving.

So...

What is there to know about me?

• I have a DVD obsession
• I think Supernatural is the best show in the world and if you aren't watching, yeah, you should get on that.
• I'm 20 years old but sometimes act like I'm 12
• I love any kind of music- from ACDC to the Backstreet Boys
• Summer = <3
• I celebrate Chrismukkah in the winter
• I like to rock and roll all nite and party everyday